Monday, June 30, 2008

Love this...

1 How long, O LORD ? Will you forget me forever? 
       How long will you hide your face from me?

 2 How long must I wrestle with my thoughts 
       and every day have sorrow in my heart? 
       How long will my enemy triumph over me?

 3 Look on me and answer, O LORD my God. 
       Give light to my eyes, or I will sleep in death;

 4 my enemy will say, "I have overcome him," 
       and my foes will rejoice when I fall.

 5 But I trust in your unfailing love; 
       my heart rejoices in your salvation.

 6 I will sing to the LORD, 
       for he has been good to me.

--Psalm  13

This Psalm was one that I read over and over again when going through infertility.  It was a way to express my anger, sadness, and also declare to the Lord my hope in him and faith that he would answer my prayers.  Sunday at church this was the passage that was the focus of the sermon-- I just could not stop crying!  I am so overwhelmingly thankful, unworthy, yet willing to and excited to glorify his name through raising my children in him.  It makes me think about others that are going through this struggle-- some of you read this blog.  Read this Psalm everyday.  It's okay to be mad at God-- but have faith that God himself is faithful.  It's hard, but he had taught me a whole new level of trust and deepened my relationship with him.  For that I am thankful.  I will sing to the Lord, for he has been GOOD to me!  Okay, I'm crying again... better go! :)

6 comments:

Kelli said...

Such a great post! Thank you for sharing this huge encouragement!

Anonymous said...

Thanks for that!!

Rathi

Jill said...

Thank you for sharing this. Today was one of those, "I just can't get out of bed days". I needed this.

*HUGS*

Kristen said...

Love the post! I totally get it.
I had those days that Jill is having. I felt that I deepened my relationship during that time and was also mad at God during other times. God has truly answered our prayers and blessed us tremendously eventhough the wait seemed like it would never be over. I am so glad I went through this...it was a blessing in disguise.

Shiloh said...

I have always loved this Psalm. It is so freeing to know that we can be upset with God and that He will not stop loving us or leave us. It always makes to smile to hear how he speaks to us through things like the sermon you heard on Sunday. Love you friend!!

Tricia said...

The week I found out Emmi was deaf, the sermon was about the difference between "hearing" what Jesus was saying and "listening" to what Jesus was saying. I cried the whole way through. And it was a funny sermon. Everyone else was laughing.....