on this day one year ago...

I can't believe that on this day last year, February 25th, my transfer was performed.  My two teeny tiny embryos were carefully transferred in just a few short minutes and I just relaxed with hubby by my side both of us crying tears of joy.  It was the first glimpse of hope of getting pregnant I had felt in years.  I remember they gave me valium to take at home before I got there... don't think I felt ANY effect from it!   It was a crazy emotional day (as all infertility treatments were) and so much faster and easier than I imagined.  When Richey and I left (I was taken out in a wheelchair which felt strange since I felt perfectly fine!), it was the very first time-- literally-- that I left that office got in the car and did NOT cry.  I love my doctor (and his assistant), I adore the nurses, and even loved chatting it up (me talking to strangers?!  surprise, surprise) with the sweet ladies at the desk.  It's just that every time I left, Satan attacked.  I felt hopeless and discouraged.  I'd have to sit in the car and just talk to my Jesus- ask for peace and reassurance... and then... usually went to Target afterward (it was across the street)! :)  God is so good.  I often asked God WHY I didn't know ANYONE going through infertility when I was.  I really didn't.  I didn't have the courage to talk much about it and felt so alone.  During that time God taught me (and told me) that the reason was that He wanted me to trust him and my faith to grow in him in ways I had never experienced.  He also has revealed to me so many of YOU and others that are going through it and has allowed me to share my story.  Know that I pray for you ladies going through infertility ALL the time- by name.  I'm boldly asking God for miracles- the way he performed them for US- blessing us with Reese and Riley.   Click here to read more about this day one year ago!